there'z something inside me
that doezn't mix with what's outside me
and my skin iz all that's there to protect me
there'z so much bullshyt in this world
so many people trying to phuk with you
lying to you, stealing from you
trying to phuk your life up
to make themselvez pheel better
to make their livez look better
when they're nuthing but scum
lowlife, crackhead piecez of shyt
but it just goez to phigure
they're too dumb to kill themselvez
they don't realize that it would improve this world
that it would improve our livez, if they were gone
either they kill themselvez, and better this world
or i kill myself, and this world gets worse
but i'm in a better place, and i pheel better
would it even matter?
they live to make this world worse
they strive to make us mizerable
just like the government, and religionz
everyone out there, iz out to phuk you over
they're all out for themselvez
i actually had someone tell me that once
that they were just out for themselvez
they didn't give a phuk about anyone else
i can see myself starting to get like that
like it's starting to rub off on me
i may be antisocial az all hell
but i still care about this world
maybe not the people in it
but i do care about something
i don't even know anymore what it iz
i'm writing to people that don't seem to exist
or maybe there'z a thick wall between us
i can't phigure out what it iz
but i only seem to be surrounded by crackheadz
and no matter how hard i try to get out of here
i'm still stuck here in this same shythole place
with theze same stupid lozer asshole people
maybe they are the wall keeping me here
the wall i cannot seem to break through
i know i have the strength to do it
so what's stopping me? i can't phigure it out
i can see the future, where i want to end up
but i can't see the road between here and there
iz there something wrong with me?
am i not good enuph to get there?
haz my life been tainted by this shythole?
i've seen other people make it out of their hell
but something tellz me thoze people are fake
put there just to fool me into thinking i can get there
but in reality, it's phuking impossible
people say that all the time, 'in reality'
what the phuk doez that mean?
that we aren't in some 'reality'?
iz that what the problem iz?
or when they're talking about superstarz
and then they say 'real people', refering to us
doez that prove my theory?
that theze people are all fake?
put there just to mislead me?
doez that mean this whole world iz fake?
that theze people are just figments of my imagination?
like they seem to be in my dreamz?
doez that mean i'm skizophrenik or something?
or doez it mean that someone put them here?
and who the phuk would that be?
it couldn't be a 'god', cauze i can't imagine
a 'god' having that bad of a sense of humour
am i suppozed to learn a lesson from this?
am i being fooled? or punk'd? where'z ashton?
i need to shoot that syck, stoopid mutherphuker
(one shot and the world gets smaller)
i don't know, i just don't get it, i don't understand
this world needz a safe exit, a safe passage
a healthy way to escape this bullshyt
who knowz, maybe i'll wake up tomorrow
and find myself laying in a nice big bed
somewhere in fiji, looking at the ocean out the window
maybe someone squeegeeing the window
for a small dose of irony, or for some syck joke
maybe there will be three naked women in my bed
yeah, that's right, you piece of shyt, i'm a dreamer
i said it, i'm a phuking dreamer... but i'm not the only one
