every fucking time

every fucking time i catch a male looking me in the eye...

every fucking time... every fucking day...

it just disturbs the shit outta me. it won't stop. it will not fucking stop.

they will not fucking stop. it's every fucking day. several times a day.

they can't stop staring at me, they can't stop asking me for shit.

why can't they stop? it is so traumatic, so disturbing, that every single fucking one of them has to look into my eyes.

no matter their social status...
whether they're above me or below me...

they have to stare, they have to look me dead in the eye, in the most uncomfortable way, and i cannot fucking stand it anymore, i can't look away quick enough.

i fucking hate this life. i fucking want to die so bad.

just now, talking to the starfucks lady, there's some douchebag standing behind me staring over my fucking shoulder at my fucking desktop... god, get the fuck away from me! you sickening fucking creeps! he's complete scum, long strangly hair, dirty clothes, jeans... scumbag! just staring at me, i can't even talk to another woman without some douchebag being right fucking there! the second i'm done talking to her, i look back, he's just right fuckin there, like 'dude, can i see?'

you make me fucking sick. you make me fucking suicidal.

how many fucking males do i have to tell? stay the fuck away from me!

god, i'm disturbed and shaking to the core of my fucking heart, man.

i feel like this heart's just gonna stop beating if a woman doesn't touch me soon.

even the bitches on positive singles, i swear they're paid by the cia to be as cruel as possible. there's no other excuse. you shit on people, and blame them for doing the same. the shit stops with you, asshole. the abuse stops with you. i fucking want to die.