to whoever will listen (and care)

this country just wants to keep us prisoner in a miserable life.

there are too many barricades between us and freedom.

my girlfriend and i, including our kitten and our rv, do not feel safe anymore, let alone wanted.

poverty has crushed and destroyed everything.

it seems like this country is so proud of its poverty, like it's something to show off to other countries.

like 'look how many destroyed lives we're standing on'.

i want no part of that anymore. this country does not deserve me.

we have tried calling two one one multiple times.
we have tried all the resources they've recommended multiple times.
i personally have been through the loop of resources here in seattle at least twice now.

i find them all to be frauds. scams.
i wish i could find a lawyer and sue them.
but i'm absolutely powerless to even get myself out of poverty.

the only things they offer are housing and employment, the last two things we want.

we'd rather pursue our talents in an rv, but that's below anyone else's standards.

the boot of poverty on our throats... we just want it off.

we want to be away from the rich, as well as religious people, rappers, addicts...

we're watching this country get dumber and more apathetic every day.

we have tried calling two one one multiple times.
all the resources here in seattle are a fraud keeping people poor and uneducated.
debilitated, impeded, crippled, miserable, desperate, and what is the purpose?

so please... i don't know how to ask for actual legitimate human help anymore.

but what i'm going to say is, don't tell me to call saint vincent de paul...
don't shove religion down my throat... don't even pray for me...
i don't want god to help me, i want humanity to help me, i want science to...

does it matter what i say. there are no answers.

this shopping mall of the human spirit is the be all end all to human existence on this planet.

but what i'm trying to ask...
i refuse to call saint vincent de paul again, just to be told 'no' or 'can't'.

how do i get a lawyer?
it really cannot be that impossible.

how do i sue the state of washington?

my rv was impounded this morning. how do i get it back?

my kitten is in my backpack right now, how do i...

i can't even formulate a question anymore.

i have endured too much trauma, abuse, torture... and other things that people always assume aren't actually real...

i don't even know what to ask.

my girlfriend and i would like out of this country as soon as possible.

what does it take to become a refugee?
what does it take to get into canada?
what does it take to do it now, and get that boot off our throats?

when will my questions stop being 'too big' for the people who claim to have answers?

all i've ever been good at doing is thinking outside the box...

i've come to realize... the 'box' that i'm thinking outside of...

is the box from the fuckin hellraiser movies. what's the point?
does it really have to be such a thing?

all i can keep thinking really, is a lyric from one of my favourite metal songs, 'the rage to overcome', the beginning...

'this world does not want me
this world does not care
and i'm a product of this world
confused, i'd say that's fair'...

it just keeps going through my head.

this nightmare hell won't get any better, it just keeps getting worse.

that was the third time in three months the police forced me to move my rv, in essence stealing money from me which could have gone toward fixing the rv.

why would an area that serves free meals to the homeless... not allow rvs?

why does it seem like it's more acceptable to be homeless than to have an rv?

why does it seem like it's more acceptable to be a drug addict or a politician than anything else?

i'm ashamed to be a human right now, and i desperately want someone to understand.

i'm asking the big questions because i want bigger answers.

i want someone to say 'i'll drive you and your family up to canada right now, i just called and got you refugee status, and they're expecing you'...

no one is human enough.

seattle has no compassion. only tyranny.

the rich people can have this city. just at least have the balls to push me out.

instead of stealing my home because it's not up to your paranoid standards.

or because your childish laws can't keep up with my compromises to poverty.

i like my life.

and... apparently, the best life to be lived right now, is in something called a 'dark political niche'.

what the fuck are you people smoking?
why must those walls be so vital?
there are more lives to live than yours, whether you think so or not.

now, if you're understanding my question better than i can...

how can you get my family out of this country as soon as possible?
do we call city council? city hall? a lawyer? who?

i know there are phone numbers to be called, so tell me anything except 'i don't know'.

i want to go above the police' heads, i want to get to someone who can actually answer me.

someone who doesn't just disregard what intellect i do have, and assuming i'm dumber than them, like everyone else... it's time for this shit to stop and for me to get a little respect considering who's throwing a tantrum in the white house right now.

is this a fair question yet?
does it make sense yet?
is it legal to ask it yet?