something fucking work!

fucking come on, man!

what the fuck is this shit!

no matter what i try to search for on google, it has to be so goddamn difficult and frustrating, time consuming, and i can never find a fucking thing i'm looking for.

whatever part of my life i'm trying to track down and get back, it takes me years to find anything!

because any fucking site i search on, their search features are fucking retardedly fucked with no excuses!

i've been searching ftop.ru for two years now, trying to replace my red girl picture i love so much.
i'll never fucking see it again, i've been through that site for years, i cannot find it, there's too much fucking cheesy porn to search through to find the high class pictures. i've tried searching every fucking word i could think of, i cannot fucking find it! or the picture of the naked girl selling televisions, they're fucking gone.

i've tried searching deviantart, wincustomize, google images, fucking everything, for some old icons i used to have, or any new nice icons i might like. i like the round shiny orb icons, but damned if i can find fucking anything. all the icons i have to sort through are those stupid flat boring grey ones that everyone else loves. i cannot fucking find cool icons that i like. you idiots all like the flat boring plain grey shit, i like colourful roundy orb shiny fuckin' glossy icons with cool pictures in there, i used to have a shitload, damned if i can find them anymore!

trying to download or install updates for windowblinds, trying to get anything to work as far as windowblinds ten, any news on the updates, and if i don't have money, despite all the fucking money i've already paid them minus the complaints and inconveniences, well then i'm just fucked. there's no talking logically to these sick, stupid, selfish fucks. greed kills individuality, uniqueness, and customization tendencies, do you not fucking know that? do i have to fucking tell you that? what the fuck is wrong with you, you immature shits! let me tell you what the fuck to do, and believe me, this will all work out a little fucking better. if only so i can find an icon when i fucking search for it, and not having to spend weeks, months, years, trying to track down tiny little pieces of my shattered fucking life while i'm sitting in a library with slow wifi and socks that are way too old to be healthy for my fucking feet!

why! why the fuck can i no longer find anything on google? i used to be the king of finding free shit online! whatever you could get that you had to pay for, i guaranfuckingtee you i could get it for free, one way or another.

now i can't even fucking pay for anything and actually find it. the entire internet is a scam.

and all those fucks like firefox, saying 'working for a more open internet', and 'nonprofit organization'... yeah, fuck you, you can't convince me that you're not a bunch of corporate fucking whores just doing what the fuck you're told, you're not a fucking human, you're not working for the freedom of humanity, cause you have no fucking clue what that even is. and i know that for a fact, cause when i search google, i can't fucking find shit!

i've offered to pay people a hundred bucks just to track down my red girl picture.

money is no incentive anymore.

i can't beg anyone.
i can't convince anyone.
i can't pay anyone.
my money is worthless, useless.

i fucking hate you all.
i used to be able to use a computer.
now i'm left with your inabilities.
your handicaps.
your retardation.

and i fucking hate you for it.

when can i invent something better?
when can i find a set of ears that will care?
when can i find a heart that will help?
will it ever fucking happen?
who do i have to pay?
whose cock do i have to suck?

where the fuck are my people!
i'm sick of this shit!