i left the house to not be lazy. all i've managed to learn in five years, is that physical pain, depression, and loneliness, along with trauma, and being unique in a society that doesn't care about uniqueness, and condemns it... that you don't get recognized unless you're fluffy status...
i made a friend, got a laptop and a van, lost the friend...
i can't motivate myself to find the right people...
do i just not realize how socially fucked i am?
i feel like writing 'female atheist metalhead with herpes wanted'... knowing i'd have to add at least the word 'sober' to that, or whatever other item from my list of hatreds that just makes it more confusing and harder for people with short attention spans to get... it's not right that i have to hate so much shit, i just can't understand why the dumbest shit has to be so fucking popular that it chokes out...
why do i feel like i've said this before...
because i've already said most of this shit...
still stuck in the same loop.
will i ever find anyone.
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